Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Putting On The Pearls


It is said that the days between Christmas and New Year are there as a period of contemplation. Contemplation requires mood, so I have donned my gray long sleeved sweater and my Jackie Kennedy pearls. Now I am ready to contemplate 2009 as it relates to my aspirations for 2010. Yes, I have a specific outfit for each mood. I think the photographs of Jackie Kennedy always looked contemplative, so for me, she represents that mood. Oh, and I must be blonde to write.



I want to thank Jasia for expanding the Resolution COG to include goals, aims, declarations, intentions, aspirations, objectives, plans, targets, schemes, wishes, or whatever you want to call them! It's still not working for me.


This is my third resolution COG. In the first, I was "Resolute On Resolutions." That year I refused to engage in what has always been for me, the resolution farce. You know; clean, organize, lose weight. It always ends in bitter disappointment, defeat, and weight gain. I chose instead a single word for the year. That word was "permission." I wrote:

". . .does the word "permission" give me "permission" to ignore the word "permission" guilt free, thereby putting me in the win column for the year?"

That was a total cop out. As totally ineffectual and transparent as making a resolution.

The second year "I Solemnly Resolved" to make "Year Long Aspirations of Good Intentions." Even mere aspirations have resulted in disappointment a year later. While I didn't resolve, only aspired, the heat should have been off, but it wasn't. A resolution by any other name. . .

Perhaps my attitude toward selection has been rather cavalier. Perhaps the aspirations were written for the reader and not the author. Perhaps I'm on to something.

You know, as I sit here and contemplate, it becomes more and more evident. I am really quite happy. Just as I never wanted to know the sex of my unborn children, I don't want to plan or research the twists and turns of life. I want to experience them. Embrace them. Revel in them.

So as I stand on the precipice of 2010, I will neither resolve nor aspire. I will not treat my life as a business and set goals or objectives. I won't aim, it's more fun to hit something not intended.

So 2010, surprise me. Connect a family, connect my family, drop some wonderful photographs on me. Let me continue to enjoy what I do, what my family does, what my friends do. Amaze me with new contacts, new directions, new technology. Sneak in some time, patience, and perseverance.

I want to wake every morning excited about what the day holds for me. The bitter. The sweet. It's my life and I'm really looking forward to it. No plan, no map, just serendipity. And you know I'm going to tell you all about it, right here.

So I give you pearls. Mine, while wearing Jackie's.


Resolution COG, 1 January 2009.

8 Comments:

Anonymous What's Past is Prologue said...

Killa,

One word as my comment: Thanks.

You know what I've been going through lately personally, so I read your message "through a different lens". I need to take that advice...my problem is when I try to embrace the twists and turns of life, that voice in my head wants to know the WHYS and the WHAT WILL BES. I need that patience you talk about!

I can't wait to hear about your serendipitous events. And I hope to learn to be more like you!

Donner

December 30, 2009 at 7:12 PM  
Blogger Sheri said...

Doesn't everyone dress for the occasion or mood? They say that the clothes make the woman or is it the other way around? You have left yourself wide open with the pearl necklace, but I will behave myself and just let it go!

Happy New Year Maven!

December 30, 2009 at 7:34 PM  
Blogger footnoteMaven said...

Donner:

Life happens despite our best intentions, rarely because of them.

-fM

December 30, 2009 at 7:49 PM  
Blogger footnoteMaven said...

Sheri:

Happy New Year to you, so glad you did not tempt the use of "Get Out Of's. . .

They were pearls of wisdom, and they don't cover as much territory as they used to.

-fM

December 30, 2009 at 7:52 PM  
Blogger Becky said...

fM - no resolutions for me this year either, I'm looking forward to whatever the journey gives me and where ever it takes me. Hope 2010 is a great year for you and your family.

December 31, 2009 at 8:16 AM  
Blogger footnoteMaven said...

Becky:

I live vicariously through your journey. You alone are living what I have written. You alone are resolute.

Happy New Year my friend!

-fM

December 31, 2009 at 12:34 PM  
Blogger Greta Koehl said...

Ah, fM, I posted the comment about the wish for a research surprise before I read this article. But I cannot be as brave as you and the others - it seems the only way for me to get something done is to publicly shame myself into doing it!

December 31, 2009 at 3:56 PM  
Blogger Apple said...

May 2010 be filled with only pleasant surprises for you! I think your 2009 used up your quota of the unpleasant variety for quite some time into the future.

December 31, 2009 at 4:17 PM  

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